Highlight in BOLD those that you did before!

x smoked a cigarette
x smoked a cigar
x made out with a member of the same sex (what is made out? kissing? huggin?... err)
x been in love
x been dumped
x shoplifted
x been fired
x been in a fist fight
x snuck out of parent's house
x had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
x been arrested
x made out with a stranger
x gone on a blind date
x lied to a friend
x had a crush on a teacher
x skipped school
x slept with a co-worker
x seen someone die
x been overseas
x been on a plane
x thrown up in a bar
x set a part of myself on fire
x eaten sushi
x gone crazy at a concert
x love someone or miss someone right now
x laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
x made a snow angel
x had a tea party
x flown a kite
x built a sand castle
x gone puddle jumping
x played dress up
x jumped into a pile of leaves
x gone sledding
x cheated while playing a game
x been lonely
x fallen asleep at work/school (VERY OFTEN)
x used a fake id
x watched the sun set
x felt an earthquake
x touched a snake
x been tickled
x been robbed
x been misunderstood
x won a contest
x ran a red light
x been suspended from school
x been in a car accident
x had braces
x felt like an outcast
x eaten a whole tub of ice cream in one night
x had deja vu
x danced in the moonlight
x hated the way you look
x witnessed a crime
x questioned your heart
x been obsessed with post-it notes
x squished barefoot through the mud
x been lost
x been to the opposite side of the country
x swam in the ocean
x felt like dying
x cried yourself to sleep
x played cops and robbers
x recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
x sung karaoke
x paid for a meal with only coins
x done something you told yourself you wouldn't
x made prank phone calls
x laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
x caught a snowflake on your tongue
x danced in the rain
x written a letter to Santa Claus
x been kissed under the mistletoe
x watched the sun set with someone you care about
x blown bubbles
x made a bonfire on the beach
x crashed a party
x gone rollerskating
x had a wish come true
x worn pearls
x jumped off a bridge
x ate dog/cat food
x told a complete stranger you loved them
x kissed a mirror (hahaha.. ya... its true... its kinda funni once you think of it)
x sang in the shower
x have a black dress
x had a dream that you married someone
x glued your hand to something
x got your tongue stuck to a something metal
x kissed a fish
x worn the opposite sexes clothes (I WAS FORCED!)
x been a cheerleader
x sat on a roof top
x screamed/shouted at the top of your lungs
x done a one-handed cartwheel
x talked on the phone for more than 5 hours
x stayed up all night
x didn't take a shower for a week
x pick and ate an apple right off the tree
x climbed a tree
x had a tree house/club house
x are scared to watch scary movies alone
x believe in ghosts
x have more then 30 pairs of shoes
x worn a really ugly outfit just to see what others say
x gone streaking
x played chicken
x been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
x been told you're hot by a complete stranger
x caught a fish then ate it
x caught a butterfly
x laughed so hard you cried
x cried so hard you laughed
x mooned/flashed someone
x had someone moon/flash you
x cheated on a test
x have a Britney Spears CD
x forgotten someone's name (very often..)
x slept naked
x wanted to have sex with your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush
x been obsessed with a band (there was a period of time I was crazy over A1)

Haha!! This is damm funny.. lolz.. Check out the "Biologist"! haha

Original Quote:

If you love someone,
Set her free...
If she comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, she never was....

The New Versions.....

Pessimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she ever comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, as expected, she never was


Optimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
Don't worry, she will come back.


Suspicious:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she ever comes back, ask her why.


Impatient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she doesn't comes back within some time
forget her.


Patient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she doesn't come back, continue to wait
until she comes back ...


Playful:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
* If she comes back, and if you love her still,
set her free again, repeat *


C++ Programmer:
if(you-love(m_she))
m_she.free()
if(m_she == NULL)
m_she= new CShe;

Animal-Rights Activist:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
In fact, all living creatures deserve to be free!!


Lawyers:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
Clause 1a of Paragraph 13a-1 in the second
amendment of the Matrimonial Freedom Act clearly states that...


Bill Gates :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she comes back,
I think we can charge her for re-installation fees
and but tell her that she's also going to get an upgrade.

Biologist :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
She'll evolve.

Statisticians :
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she loves you, the probability of her coming back is high
If she doesn't, your relation was improbable anyway.


Schwarzenegger's fans:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
SHE'LL BE BACK!


Over possessive person:
If you love someone
don't set her free.


HR specialist:
If you love someone set her free by
Offering her VRS and other benefits
Then outsource her.


MBA Graduate:
If you love someone
set her free
instantaneously
and look for others simultaneously


Psychologist:
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back her super ego is dominant
If she does'nt come back her id is supreme
If she does'nt go, she must be crazy.
7 years into the relationship hypothetically


Somnabulist:
If you love someone set her free
If she comes back it's a nightmare
If she does'nt, you must be dreaming.


Rhett Butler:
If you love someone
set YOURSELF FREE
If she asks you why
say you don't give a damn.


ERP functional expert:
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back, map her into your system
If she does'nt,carry out a gap-fit analysis


Finance expert:
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back its time to look fresh loans
If she does'nt, write her off as an asset gone bad.


Marketing Expert:
If you love someone
set her free
If she comes back she has brand loyalty
If she does'nt, reposition the brand in new markets.

Return of Depression Dilemma... watch this "HAHA!" =P

Lonely... Cold... alone....

Depression is threatening to overwhelm me again... I will not let it overcome me.... I cant...
Why am I like that?.......

Do guys cry? Why can't guys cry?.....

I have been thinking for a very long time.... I think I'm not AJ.... never... I was never one from the beginning....
... I just expressed my love in a very different way...

Its not me... Its the world... Its culture...

Why can't a guy hug another guy?
Why can't a guy kiss another guy?
Why can't a guy cry on the shoulder of another guy?

These are all just mere expressions of care, concern and love... Each of a different intensity...
To be brothers... There is more then just the blood, the sweat and the bold sacrifice....

It's reaching into each other's heart and feeling it... It is accepting that another guy cares for you, possibly more then you care for him...
Its not GAY...

Homosexuality. What on earth is it? It is to SEXUALLY DESIRE. another person of the same sex...
I've never ever sexually desired a guy before... ( to put it pretty grossly ) ....

Its the confusion that many guys have, that having SEX = Love... Which is completely wrong....

When I hug another guy... that person has to have a special place in my heart....



but... why am I not attracted to the other side too?.... maybe.. I'm not big enough yet....

sigh...

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Today was the test on Law...

It was pretty ok... As usual.. I knew the answers, but I couldn't write it out... haha (can you read out the words I'm using to comfort myself?)

It was generally ok lah... I could do everything...

Hmm.. I've got most of my ideas planned out for my DMA movie already....
BUT... I have to use Final Cut Pro to do out everything.... AHH!!

Its CHEEM... (dialect for "DAMM DIFFICULT!!!")

MMR presentation is coming up next.... BooOo hoo.
I hope that we'll be able to keep up a good standard....

THe most frightening thing that can happen now is to realize that we're on the wrong track...

bleahz....

She smiled at me today.... does she feel differently too? I hope she still hopes....
Coz.... I havnt felt the same way... about a person so long... for so long...

am I worthy enough?... i'm jus so unsure....

Sonia's Test... I'm BORED!

Haha.... I'm bored... So I'll do the questionnaire that Sonia did! lolz

type in the names of the 1st 20 people that comes to your mind right now
1) Simon
2) Becky
3) Sonia
4) Haryanto
5) Timothy
6) May
7) Jason
8) Ryan
9) Jawei
10) Ivan (jr.)
11) Victor
12) Titus
13) Ian
14) Nicholas
15) Eve Jie Jie
16) Chris...
17) Jasper
18) Nicky Didi
19) RunJin
20) Sarah


Then, fill this out according to the people you chose!!
---------------------------------------------------------------

Who is 8 going out with?:
- Err.. haha... I'm not sure...

Is 9 a boy or a girl?:
- BOY! haha... no. Girl

Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple?
- NO! both are attached.... -_-"

How about 18 and 4?:
- lolz... they dont even know each other... moreover, one of em's heart is occupied

What grade is 17 in?:
- err.... not in school le...

When was the last time you talked to 12?:
- I've.. never really talked to him before... though I hope to one day...haha

What is 6's favorite song?:
- Dido - Here With Me? lolz.. its on her blog...

Does 1 have any siblings?:
- Yupz

Would you ever date 3?:
- err.... zZZz

Would you ever date 7?:
- Lolz... The other party would never consent... haha

Is 16 single?:
- I guess so... Still waiting for someone to return I guess...

What's 15's last name?:
- AHH!! I cant remember!

What's 5's middle name?:
- Foo? Jing? Wei? Whats the definition of middle name? lolz

What's 10's fantasy?:
- Wahaha... to get a good guy to take care of him.. lolz!

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
- NOOOOOOO!!! CANNOT!! it would be disasterous...

What school does 20 go to?:
- SP!

Tell me a random fact about 11:
- He is somebody I respect alot...

And 1:
- He can tell a VERY funny joke, and keep a completely striaght face...... haha

Have you ever had a crush on 20?:
- She's a girl... does that explain enough? haha

Where does 9 live?:
- Lolz... I dunno? never been there before... xP

What's 4's favorite color?:
- blue, cream, light brown, orange

Would you makeout with 14?:
- OW OW OW! HE IS MY BROTHER!!

Are 5 & 1 best friends?:
- Haha.. they dunno each other

Do you like 2?:
- Yupz! She's cute and bubbly, and she's pon pon queen!

Does 8 like 19?:
- haha... they dunno each other...

How did you meet 15?:
- Lolz! Church! =D With RIcharD

Does 10 have any pets?:
- dogs? I think

Is 12 older than you?
- Nopez~! i'm older by a few months

Is 1 the sexiest person
- WAHAHHA! He's cool.. he's smart... but.. sexy... not exectly lah.. =P

Have you ever given 13 a hug?
- Nah.. haha...

How do you find 9?
- One of the coolest gals I know... at least...haha

this is fun. =D yeah.. I agree... xP

but everybody doesnt seem to know each other... lolz

The Carrot, The Egg and The Coffee Beans by William Tan

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life
and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how
she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was
tired of figuring and struggling. It seemed as one problem
was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots
with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots
came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second
she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee
beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She
fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled
the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the
coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter,
she asked, "Tell me what you see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the
carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother
then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After
pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee.
The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The
daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced
the same adversity ... boiling water. Each reacted
differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and
unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling
water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been
fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid
interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its
inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique,
however. After they were in the boiling water, they had
changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity
knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot,
an egg or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems
strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft
and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but
changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after
a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial,
have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the
same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff
spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the
hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When
the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If
you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you
get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest,
do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle
adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, and enough
hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way. The brightest future will always be based
on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you
let go of your past failures and heartaches.

A Meaningful Phrase by Rajan

It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes short again and again, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause, who at best knows achievement and who at the worst if he fails at least fails while daring greatly so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.

- Theodore Roosevelt

A word is the foundation

While a picture paints a thousands words

A phrase garners a million thoughts, dreams and vision

- me -

Metrosexual = V-neck, Low Cut Shirts

One of my friends was saying that he went to Zara to look for some clothes and he was introduced to the term "metrosexual"...

The sales person literally gave him a completely warped image on what on earth is a metrosexual... in the end, his definition of a metrosexual was :

1) Wear V-neck, low cut shirts
2) Love figure hugging or form fitting clothes

I dunno how he actually accepted that term but its like... errr.. pretty much a very shallow definition of metrosexual... in fact, its almost, totally incorrect...

haha...

I won't elaborate on what is a metrosexual already.. for those reading my blog, you would already know how some behave..


Went clubbing again on friday... alot of people are getting surprised at my sudden comeback into the clubbing scene... and I guess there must be a pretty lot of talk behind my back...

but.. no. I'm not coming back for good.. I just felt like seeing some of my old friends again...
some of them have changed.. for the better or the worst i do not know...
Met my choir junior, Ivan... he is like... transformed 180 degrees lor....

picha? he is definately still learning how to be still.. but his flamboyent actions and terrific "socializing" skills have improved by leaps and bounds...


ahh.. nvermnd.. dont feel like typing already... My index fingernail has been injured due to excessive playing on the piano....

sigh..

ow.

coNn^ECt ^^ 2oo5 =D

Oh yeah!! Connect 2005 was GREAT!!!

It is the cooooolest Connect event I've seen!!! haha... out of 2 at least...
Lolz!!

Sharina!
Shahida!
Sarah!
Sabby!
Aizat!
Jawei!
May!
Grace!

and all the rest! *if there are any names i missed out, I'm really really very sorry.. lolz... I dont have a knack for remembering names....

YOU ALL DID GREAT!!!!

Even though there were so many troubles and last minute problems occuring, you all manage to organize the entire event neatly without losing a bit of the fun!

haha!!

The year 1s were VERY cool too this year... and I MEAN VERY cool... lolz...
haha... unlike what many people think... I think that the year one guys this year are quite cute... moreover, they are exceptionally sociable as well =)

hahaz... especially my other Andrew counterpart... xP
He has pretty nice charisma... sigh.. lolz..

the gals were great too! they had great team spirit and were VERY vocal as well.. haha.... But somehow, I sense an aura of... err.. bitchiness inside.. hahah...

ah well.. can be good or bad also... I'm sure most sneaky paparazzis are bitchy as well...

The performance I loved best was the one by Sabby and Sarah... Sabby was as usual, in her WOW smooth voice again.. and Sarah showed her piano prowess playing pretty complicated melodic jazz chords as though it was as easy as anything..

Stress factor has set in.. and I'm starting to get worried for my group... I really hope that we will put in our best for the projects ahead...

I was just telling Timothy... again.. haha... I'm so glad that he's always around for me to pour out my troubles to...
that... I'm scared that our group might not be able to adapt well with each other, coz we are all like from different "realms" of our class.. haha...

hmm.. but I'm sure everything will turn out for the better...

Jia You! Mei Hui!
Jia You! Ryan!
Jia You! Becky!
Jia You! James!
Jia You! Timothy!

we can do it together! =D

SNAGS! and AJs?

Haha... I was doing my feature story pointers just now (coincidentally, I'm in Feature Writing Class now still)... and I was doing on the topic of "Metrosexuality"

What came into my brain next was pretty hilarious...

What on earth is the link between Sensitive New Age Guys and Metrosexuals?
I notice a certain link between both of them... In fact, SNAGS and Metros are no different, the only difference between them is that the Metrosexuals, have NO sexual connotation to it, and the motive is sparsely different..

What I wrote, as a header was this : SNAGS - Sensitive New Age Gays?

Poor guys... lolz...
It is getting SO DIFFICULT to tell the difference between a straight guy and an AJ nowadays, thanks to the rampent culture-takeover in guys... transforming them from brash, rough and violent beings into sensitive, caring and dreamy individuals...

That difficulty is not constrained to me alone... apparantly, alot of AJs are complaining that their Gaydar (an innate sense in long term AJs to identify AJs) are going haywire....

This goes to show 2 things :
1) There is an explosive rise in the amount of teenage AJs walking the streets of Singapore
2) Something is going horribly wrong with the term Sensitive New Age Guys...

I sincerely hope that it is option number two... Though something in me tells me otherwise...

But ANYWAyz.. Thats beside the point...
What is the definition of Sensitive New Age Guys?

a) Going all wimpy in front of gals?
b) Submitting to every single thing that a gal say?
c) Maxing out your credit card on a romatic candle light dinner?
d) Screaming and hugging the gal next to you when you see a cockroach?

or how about e) none of the above....

Most people would tell me that it is e) none of the above....
But its like undeniable that so many guys are becoming like that..... When I mean guys, I mean straight guys ok? (to all meanie homophatics you can press the red color [X] button at the top right hand side of your screen now)

So... are straight guys becoming gay?

hahaha... According to theory by a survey company in Switzerland, it is presumed that by the end of this century, 50% of the worldwide population of guys WILL be gay...
and the main reason for this? utter confusion.

Sensitive New Age Guys...
What on earth are they?

Ah well.. I'll write another entry on those another day....
Not like I'm exectly qualified myself, but I think I have enough of friends whom I would definately classify them as a qualified SNAG.

I am - so free - in Feature Writing Class...

COCKROACH!!

AHHh!! THERE IS A BIG BLACK COCKROACH IN MY BATHROOM!!!

AHHHH!!!

It was BIG.. BLACK and SHINY!!! EEEEEWWWW... it give me shivers up my spine... I havn't seen a cockroach that big in my ENTIRE life....

AND ITS IN MY BATHROOM!!!

It was humongous... bigger then those that I could even see at insect park... it was like.. the length of an average wallet that big!!

eww... shivers up my spine...


I just went to Sushi Tei to eat with my family... yum yum yum... As usual i ate all the wierdest food I can lay my hands on... Sea urchin... Puffer fish... and some silver color stuff... lolz...

i don't think i will die so fast yet.. haha...

Hmm... I always thought that creativity always deteriorated with age... but considering the design of all the Sushi Tei outlets, my father still retains quite alot! lolz...

=)

sigh... schools starts tomorrow...

Here are some hard medical facts for you.

This is like really very funny.. hahaha... =D

It has been known for many years that sex is good exercise, but until recently nobody had made a scientific study of the caloric expenditure of different sexual activities. Now after original and proprietary research they are proud to present the results.

REMOVING HER CLOTHES:
With her consent....................... 12 Calories
Without her consent.................... 387 Calories

OPENING HER BRA:
With both hands........................ 8 Calories
With one hand.......................... 22 Calories
With your teeth........................ 85 Calories

PUTTING ON A CONDOM:
With an erection....................... 6 Calories
Without an erection.................... 315 Calories
PRELIMINARIES:
Trying to find the clitoris............ 8 Calories
Trying to find the G-Spot.............. 192 Calories

POSITIONS:
Missionary............................. 112 Calories
69 lying down.......................... 178 Calories
69 standing up......................... 312 Calories
Wheelbarrow............................ 386 Calories
Doggy Style............................ 400 Calories
Italian chandelier..................... 972 Calories
ORGASMING:
Real................................... 112 Calories
Fake.................................. 315 Calories

POST ORGASM:
Lying in bed hugging................... 18 Calories
Getting up immediately................. 36 Calories
Explaining why you got out of bed immediately......816 Calories

GETTING A SECOND ERECTION:
If you are:
20-29 years old........................ 36 Calories
30-39 years............................ 80 Calories
40-49 years............................ 124 Calories
50-59 years............................ 972 Calories
60-69 years............................ 2916 Calories
70 and over......................... Results are still pending

DRESSING UP AFTERWARDS:
Calmly................................. 32 Calories
In a hurry............................. 98 Calories
With her father knocking at the door... 1218 Calories
With your wife knocking at the door.... 3521 Calories

I know I took this without consent from your blog Samuel... hahaz! But I can't help it! Its so funny.. lolz...
Sam...

A Solitary Life....

Here is a man who was born in an obscure village, the child of a peasant
woman. He grew up in another obscure village where He worked in a
carpenter shop until he was thirty. He never wrote a book. He never held
an office. He never had a family or owned a house. He never went to
college. He never visited a big city. He never traveled more than two
hundred miles from the place where he was born. He did none of those
things one usually associated with greatness. He had no credentials but
himself…

He was only thirty-three when the tide of public opinion turned against
him. His friends ran away. One of them denied him. He was turned over to
his enemies and went through the mockery of a trial. He was nailed upon
a cross between two thieves. While dying, his executioners gambled for
his clothing, the only piece of property he had on earth. When he was
dead, he was taken down and laid in a borrowed grave through the pity of
a friend.

Nineteen centuries have come and gone, and today he is the central
figure of the human race and the leader of mankind's progress. All the
armies that have ever marched, all the navies that ever sailed, all the
parliaments that ever sat and all the kings that ever reigned put
together have not affected the life on earth of mankind as powerfully as
that one solitary life.
- He is Jesus -

Yo Flora! This is for ya! lolz.... felt a bit arty today so I colored the rose centre red while leaving the outside monochrome... haha.. leaves a nice effect =D Hope ya like it... 

SHARINA!! Sista! This is for you!! I spent the most time doing your tag pic!! Haha... This is my proudest accomplishment yet!! The merge between your two favourites! Avril and Justin!! lolz... I really hope you like it =) Stay cool!! hahaz... It took me quite a long time to edit and modify all the different pictures to put inside.. lolz 

haha!! okiez... I'm here with my taggie!!! Lolz... This is what my name stands for... and as for the picture.. I just stumbled upon it in my pictures file and guess it pretty muched resounded like the comic character I would have been! 

Updated Information on the Night Life!

Hmmm... I was talking to one of my jie about how was the lesbian scene like in Singapore... and I was shocked at my sudden realization that my knowledge was becoming obsolete...

So here is an update on the new bars on the block

Alternative Bar
Girls' hangout with a pool table. Week nights are strictly for ladies with Saturday being the only night where male companions are welcomed. Located on the second floor, enter by staircase near Why Not and Legend bar. Opening hours are from 9pm on weekdays and on Saturdays. Closed on Sundays and public holidays.

Cows & Coolies
A pub for gals to showcase their vocal prowess belting out latest Chinese hits.

Herstory
The monthly party for grrls to have some rip, roaring fun is now held on the second Thursday of every month from 9pm to 3am. The next one coming up will be on 12 May 2005 at whyNOT Bar & Disco. Check out their website for the latest updates.

Mad Monk's Pub
Located at The Riverwalk arcoss the road from Boat Quay, the pub comes alive every Friday night with Top 40 and R&B hits, a packed dancefloor and alfresco area. The best bet for an "action-packed" girls-only night out.

Two Queens @ Thumper
Held every first Tuesday of the month; and organised and hosted by one of Singapore's best known actresses, Irene Ang, the night typically begins with a short show or game segment before the DJ takes over with a Top 40 dance mix. The bar also features an al fresco area which looks out onto the hotel carpark.


I was like only aware of the Mad Monk's Pub and Cow and Coolies, where my jie would drag me to meet her girlfriends and sing the night away...

of course, there are the more famouse pubs, where there is an even mix of AJs and Lesbians...


Velvet Underground
Cover charges differ for different nights and hours. Best go by taxi. Good crowd, great music, one of the mainstays of the gay/lesbian communities. Slightly older, mid-20s crowd. Air-crew nites on Tuesdays and Thursdays

Zouk
Plays house & techno beats, great music, hip young crowd. Wednesdays is Mambo night (lots of university kids).

As usual, most gals-night-out are on Thursday, where ladies-only events and such will be held...


I got these information from my jie's blog, she actually when to research it and update her blog with these information just for me....
I'm so touched... such a nice jie jie right?

lolz

Max jie jie! don't say I never help you advertise wor!! haha...

Its been so long since I go out with you all le... Don't think I will have the time liaw anywayz... haha.. but I will go and eat dinner with you all still ok? haha.. don't worry.. didi is still around!

Remember...
I'm phoenix!
Element : Fire!
Powers : Rebirth!
I embody neither male, nor female, but a combination of both! Haha...

Feng... (chinese for phoenix)... is my last name... and this was wad my jie told me I was 3 years ago when I got into a fight with one of her lesbian enemies...

Tainted History... haha... nobody really believes that I was once like that... My false self? I wonder.. haha... Which is which? Which is my real self? Which should I choose?

another parallax on my part...

Timothy... Haha... The final one is for you.... Final Fantasy - Advent Children eh! haha... I hope you'll like this... I put in quite some effort too... Lolz.. The guy in the pic looks a bit like you! haha.... FF rocks! Cloud suits your personality as well... unconventional yet determine =D 

BECKY!! I LOOVE this pic... Must put as your wallpaper ok!! Took me quite some time to erase some "extra" details and add some inside! I choose cardcapter sakura because of her cuteness and because she always skips school also!  

Guess who!!! haha... Yupz.. James, this is for you... Faerie Uni! In tribute to your most favourite colors and neopet... I dunno what on earth is "supplanter", but that is what the name's meaning is....  

Next up!! Mei Hui!... I chose Final Fantasy's Yuna in this case because she is very VERY intelligent, yet innocent an beautiful at the same time... Her element is the power to heal... I guessed your name's meaning, so parden me if I'm wrong ok? lolz =D 

I'm feeling rather photoshoppy again! So I decided to create my new grouppy's tags!! lolz.... I hope that its nice enough..... First up! RYAN!!! (The reason why I chose this picture is because Rugal - The guy in the pic, before he became evil, was a very silent, but intelligent guy who loved his friends alot... [Not that you will become evil.. its jus that you suit his personality]) ... I even added the meaning to your names!! 

Beyond the Hate

A young lady named Sally relates an experience she had in class, given
by her teacher, whom we'll call Brother Smith. She says Brother Smith
was known for his elaborate object lessons. One particular day, Sally
walked into class and knew they were in for another fun day.

On the wall was a big target and on a nearby table were many darts.
Brother Smith told the students to draw a picture of someone that they
disliked or someone who had made them angry and he would allow them to
throw darts at the person's picture.

Sally's girlfriend (on her right), drew a picture of a girl who had
stolen her boyfriend. Another friend (on her left), drew a picture of
his little brother. Sally drew a picture of Brother Smith, putting a
great deal of detail into her drawing. Sally was pleased at the overall
effect she had achieved.

The class lined up and began throwing darts, with much laughter and
hilarity. Some of the students threw their darts with such force that
their targets were ripping apart. Sally looked forward to her turn, and
was filled with disappointment when Brother Smith, because of time
limits, asked the students to return to their seats.

As Sally sat thinking about how angry she was because she didn't have a
chance to throw any darts at her target, Brother Smith began removing
the target from the wall. Underneath the target was a picture of Jesus.
A complete hush fell over the room as each student viewed the mangled
picture of Jesus. Holes and jagged marks covered His face and His eyes
were pierced out.

Brother Smith said only these words, "In as much as ye have done it unto
the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me."

(Matthew 25:40)

No other words were necessary. The tear-filled eyes of each
student focused only on the picture of Christ. The students remained in
their seats even after the bell rang, then slowly left the classroom,
tears streaming down their faces.

El Quoit Neu Grouppy?

At my friends place now.... He lost his key to his company's office...
He's like in a pretty frantic state of mind now, and I'm here, using his computer, calmly blogging...

Lolz... For those that know what I'm talking about, I'm now presently at the Vclub... I know what they all say... its sleazy and its full of smokers... but what the heck... now is a wedenesday and its smack right in the middle of the afternooon...
Nothing could possibly happen to me right? .... right?

ah well... Back at school, we just formed our own group... From the looks on everybody's faces, there was a slight aura of dissatisfaction.. but it can't be helped... we all have to leave our comfort zones one day right? ... right?
I'm sure my new grouppy will be cool....

But I definately will miss my old group...
It kinda shocked me when Sharina literally burst into tears when she realized that none of her old group mates were in her new group..
It... made me feel like crying too... I really love my old group... Even though sometimes we may have disagreements and we may have arguments, I know that deep down inside, we really cared for each other...

Though we are not grouppys anymore, its still friends for life right? ... right?

The new group consist of some of the pretty cool lot of people...
Not in order of any way,

1) Becky
2) Timothy
3) Ryan
4) Mei Hui
5) James
6) Me!~

We have like 3 relatively proven highly smart individuals in our grouP! namely: Becky, Timothy and of course, Mei Hui!
Wow... The future seems bright.... (not glaringly bright.... just for Timothy's notion)

After the pretty long discussion on how to split the group, I went to the gym again... I kinda noticed that tis getting more and more packed... with people and non-people alike...
There were actually chee-koh-pehs walking around and oogling at gals, (and guys even) some even having the cheek to go up to them and give them a sleazy stare...

Not that they looked particurly bad or anything (I mean the CKPs), but shouldn't they respect the privacy of the gym? Thats in my opinion... Some of the CKPs were actually quite hot... but the sleazy oogle they gave will definately send a chill down the spine of most people...


Ah yes..... I realized also that there IS an emerging trend amongs the AJs once more...
Despite all the rumours that AJs actually LOVE the color purple and pink, or even more outrageous colors such as a combinaton of Hot Pink and Lavender...

That is NOT TRUE. Not even the the slightest extent...

Most AJs do not even like those colors, though I for one is an exception (note the present tense)
note: the fact that the international GLBT flag's color is a striking rainbow, does not mean anything at all...

from what I noticed, most AJs prefer to wear
1st - BLACK
2nd - WHITE
3rd - All shades of blue
4th - Cream
5th - There is no fifth.... i hardly even see an AJ wearing any other colors... Yah.. they do wear other colors, in their daily life, but they do not stick to one exception



ok... I think I talked to much... i gotta get everything planned out fo my next grouppy, so that we can have a headstart on the MMR project....

I sense, its going to be the start of a beautiful new friendship....

Ironies and Dryer's Ice Cream

I'm fat.... I just ate:

1 plate of Sang Mee
1 plate of Mee Goreng
2 bowl of Dryer's Rocky Road Ice-Cream
2 boyl of Dryer's Cookie's and Cream Ice-Cream
1 bowl of Dryer's Chocolate Cake Ice-Cream
1 bowl of Dryer's Macadamia Brittle Ice-Cream

Looking back... I've stuffed myself silly with ice-cream... but I did enjoy it though... bah.. I'm going to the gym tomorrow to covert all the silly proteins to muscle...

ah well... the ironies of life...

Met this guy named Jason(ification) from Campus Crusade too... new freshie this year... pretty cool guy... haha!
He plays DotA too, and he is a jazz lover as well.... lolz!! We crapped all the way from the Staff Lounge to Tiong Bahru MRT Station...

There is another Andrew in Campus Crusade too... Wonders of Wonders... it is no Wonder that Andrew is the 4th most common name in the world...
(eh... don't laugh Andrew(s) are cool ok!?)

Hmm.. Though Timothy and me are not so close nowadays... I'm still worried for him... very worried in fact... apart from the fact that he is also taking the specialist diploma along with me, he also has enrolled himself in so many different clubs that it seems the very commitment would scare most people off...

Relaxation I guess.... His priority isn't to score well in his modules when he came to poly....

Ironic isn't it.... considering that mine is... hahaha

Just hope that he knows what he is getting himself into...


AHHH!!! I'm suppose to do the SPCCC Newsletter as well.... Another commitment weighed down on me.. lolz.... But as long as it is for His glory, I'm willing to slave away!
haha... slave for Christ = Freedom from the world...



Sometimes when the chaos have died down, and like now, am alone at home typing these....
I wish... ah.. nevermind... wishful thinking...







...... that she will still know that I'm still waiting...

HFTV is COOL

History of Film and Television.... as boring as it may sound, I think that this is the most interesting module that I have experienced this year....
Not to flatter Ms Kwa or anything... but... I feel its really cool to discuss about stuff that you really like after a long day of.... study?

But somehow I feel rather inadequet... Just today, there were two guys behind me... err...... kindof like forgot their names.... so anyhow... I'll just refer them to two guyz...
They were discussing really REALLY difficult stuff that I've never even heard Mr Loh nor Ms Kwa used before....
It kinda scared me.....

They dicussed camara angles in PROPER terms and grammer, they commented about visual effects and discussed HOW TO CREATE THEM...
It was all very nerve wrecking... but... Good for them I guess... They will be good directors next time...

The projects are starting to phase into reality.... and nightmares will soon become real horrors...
But ah well.... Like all HOLLY WOOD classics, there are ALWAYS happy endings to every show...
But... Psycho's 'happy ending' was still quite disturbing...

We're going to be changing groups really soon...
Needless to say.. I'm kind of apprehensive... I'm scared that I might not be able to communicate as well as my present group...
And most of all.. I'm scared that I might be more lonely then ever....

But one thing is for sure... I will definately work... No matter even if I have to work alone and create a whole project out of scratch... I will finish it....

Long-term planner? Call me short sighted... I still love and miss my groupy alot...

I was looking at the "mini clips" and advertisements that our seniors put up... Some were pretty good, and some were mildly impressive...
(Note: I was NOT impressed one bit with XiaXue's mini clip. Read: NOT IMPRESSED)

However, I was definately impressed by the No Smoking Campaign ad done by one of my seniors... The idea was definately great.. It deserved a straight distinction for creativity in my opinion at least...

I noticed that most of the clips liked to employ the technique of slowing the frame rate to create the "Matrix" effect.... It was nice at first, but it became tacky after awhile....



I wanna join the Cold Storage retail experiance thing.. anybody wanna join me?

sorry!!!!

oh man... I feel like such an idiot... I found the article!...

AHH... SARAH!! don't be angry with me.. please please please please please...

I'm really absent minded.... sorry sorry sorry..

I'll make it up to you one day... I promise...

Nonchalent.

童话

-光良

忘了有多久　再没听到你　对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久　我开始慌了　是不是我又做错了甚么

你哭着对我说　童话里都是骗人的　我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂　从你说爱我以后　我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里　你爱的那个天使　张开双手　变成翅膀守护你
你要相信　相信我们会像童话故事里　幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里　你爱的那个天使　张开双手　变成翅膀守护你
你要相信　相信我们会像童话故事里　幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里　你爱的那个天使　张开双手　变成翅膀守护你
你要相信　相信我们会像童话故事里　幸福和快乐是结局　一起写我们的结局

The words highlighted in bold is for a certain somebody I know... Don't give up ok?

sigh... I dunno why... is it me? or does the whole world seem so strained from me nowadays...

I wish I knew...

I miss my best friends I used to have in secondary school...

The times when we will laugh and crap the whole weekend away...

Its so different now....

Sarah just told me off for not bothering about OM... but.. I don't even have the article... how can I do it?...

Then... she said she will find another new article...

When I offered to do one article as well.. she said "forget it"....

I admit I was hurt...

I wish I knew why she was so worked up....

I'm alone at home now... nobody by my side... no small brother to climb on top of me and rattle my earbones... No elder brother to push me away from the computer... No parent nagging...

but somehow I feel nonchantlent....

I feel... even.. sad...

I dunno what to do... I'm just feeling so lonely deep down inside......

Calm before a storm...

Gnnaaahh.... Feels like the calm before a storm... geddit?...
Everything is still managable now... at least I can go to worship practice without a mind cramp full of schedules and deadlines to meet... yet..

The real deal is most probably going ta start next week.... ba-ha... I should be doing my questions now... but I'm too lazy to...

My parents and brothers are going overseas... so effectively, I'm home-alone... lolz... It feels kinda wierd... like... I couldn't care much... yet I know I'm going to be lonely without them...

sigh... sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh....

I'm Mr Lonely
I'm so lonely
I've got nobody
All on my ownnnnnnnnnnnn.... laaaa

hahaha... I heard that from Ryan last time at the SB Freshie thingie and it was so funny... he was sucking helium and making funny sounds...

I finally found a society for metrosexuals in Singapore... Actually, more like I stumbled upon it by accident... I didnt even know such a society existed...
well well... sub-culture... you know?
It is somewhere near Boat Quey... thats all I can say...

Mad Monks don't seem so busy nowadays I noticed... Most of the people who go there now jus play a few games of pool and disappear to nowhere....

Did you ever wonder... are Gays and Lesbians enemies? After all, they are on the opposite sides of the planet...
I have many bung sistas, but they are only a minority... many of em still turn a fast eye on the gay community.... I dunno why...
"aren't we all in the same boat?" - as quoted by Zhi Hui kor....
but they don't really feel the same I guess...

The real enemies usually lurk in the straight community... also known as the homophobics or homopaths...
this sickos with a utter resentment and deep hatred for the AJ and Lesbian community has caused us to hide, closeted for far too long....

its time to break the trend.



I'm AJ. I'm not AJ. But I'm not afraid of my identity, thats for sure....

=P my fingers are ichy.. lolz.. here is another wan 

final one.... 

Another one.. 

These are a few ideas I had for the posters for DMC connect....  

connnectttt....

Blearghz.. I wan to make posters for connect too.... =P

Everybody is helping out in DMC Connect 2005... I feel left out... xP
lolz...

What do you do when somebody likes you? do you.... run away? do you... act embarressed as if nothing happened? or do you take the situation in strides...

its a confusing situation... with mixed feelings bombarding you every single moment of the day...


She still blinks up in my mind every now and then.... but.... sigh.. nevermind...


anywayz... this is most probably the last week I will be relatively free.... shucks...

I forgot what I wanted to type...
blearghz... so there...

The Roles and Characters of Actives and Passives - Another study of the AJ community

Went to the SP's new gym today... must say it has really good facilities, but the first impression you get when you step inside there is that it is pretty empty.. coz there is so much empty space... haha
but the new threadmills and cycles are really cool... especially the one that automatically measures your heartbeat... something that the old gym never had...

really felt weak... must be because I havn't gone for quite some time... did a couple of sets of this and that, and I'm dead beat...

anywayz... the following is written for a person that is close to my heart... thought he doesn't feel that way, this is still for him...

Roles and Characters of the Actives and Passives - by Andrew

Active:
- Initiates dates, setting the time, place and location, according to mutual preferences as speculated.
- Almost always punctual or earlier for the occasion, fashion sense always paid off
- Usually the leader, whether in directions of conversation
- Does not have to be particularly sensitive, however, but should have a sense of identity at all times
- Identity is a key factor, whilst maintaining the guys view of the world, understand that an AJ should not be afraid of expressing emotion
- Anger and rage shouldn't be kept, but discussed and dismissed
- While both parties may go dutch, the active DOES NOT ask for the passive for a threat
- Gifts and presents are not at all neccessary, but if one finds the need, it usually solves alot of problems (not joking)

Passive:
- Sensitive to the feelings of the active, persuasion to reach one party's point of view is indispensible
- Identity is a compulsary permernant factor. Need I say more? A passive is usually the manifestation of the AJ's personality
- Generally VERY emotional
- Anger and rage usually bottles up in passives, but it isn't good for any relationship
- While punctuality is usually an issue with passives, the passive should ALWAYS inform the active that he might be late, lest an argument might arise
- Accept gifts with modesty, return it with physical or emotional touch
- Respect the decision of the active, after all, you can't make up your mind yourself
- Try not to give single word answers
- Act cool, maintaining your identity at all times



The AJ circle is a complicated chain of emotions, each attached to one another, and founded upon the modern concept of materialism. (at least that is what I have realised)

dang you say... I wish that hunk would notice me...
If you want it, then why are you still standing there? Get your freaking workout schedule planned properly! At least, he might notice you next time...

It is possible for a straight to become an AJ. But it is almost impossible for an AJ to return back to his straight life again...

If you are an AJ, remember, nothing on earth is free. If you want something, you have to have something to give in return.
Be it (if you were born lucky) looks, money, intelligence or even lust at its lowest.

A survey done by Fridae.com last year stated that among the GLBT global community

83% said that they wouldn't care for anything else, as long as he/she has the looks
41% said that they wouldn't care for anything else, as long as he/she has the money
39% said that they wouldn't care for anything else, as long as he/she has the persona
15% said that they wouldn't care for anything else, as long as they had a future together
2% said that they didn't care that the person had anything

As you can see, looks are what are on most of the AJs minds, and if you want to get a good standing in the AJ community, brush up on your looks, or consider being a metrosexual =)

Do not fret if you can't get the person that you want... improve yourself, at least, this way, you stand a chance to compete with the ever increasing amount of good looking guys that walk the street now...


I also noticed that the increasing trends among AJs is that many of them are targeting younger and younger guys!
When I first stepped into the AJ community, I was possibly one of the youngest.. that was when I was in late Sec 1...
however, now there are countless secondary school boys who call themselves AJs... I also dunno if what they say is credible or not... but it is true

Paedophiles that are 40+ year old and married are giving thousands of dollars a week to have underage *** with secondary school boys...
and some of them, get the wasting disease even before they reach 20...

its sad...

but its an undeniable fact that Singaporean guys are getting better looking! Keep it up peepz! Soon we will be able to have a community of metrosexuals! hahaha... ah well.. I'll shut up now and go to sleep....